LANARK

A red barn and silos on a farm in Lanark Illinois.

 

DIGGING FOR ROOTS

 

Roots provide nourishment and support for plants.

Just as family provides nourishment and support for humans.


Lanark is the hometown of my mother's mother. It is the stage of the many stories I have been told. It is the soil in which my family placed their roots after moving to the States from Germany. It is the Earth from which I came; it nourished my Grandmother who then nourished my mother who nourished me. I owe much to that one small town, and to my family there. 


THEN AND NOW

Grandma once told me about her father's airplane, which he built from scratch. She told me that her father would take her on flying trips and, when she was old enough, he taught her how to fly. I stood in the kitchen with this white haired woman and discussed the practicalities of loop-the-loops. It all seemed a little surreal. When in Lanark, I visited the small airstrip that belonged to my Great Uncle Herb, and saw firsthand the legacy of my grandfather's interest in airplanes.

Grandma told me that she loved to swim, and in her youth, she could swim the length of a lake no problem. In Lanark, I saw a pond where the she and her peers would have gathered. Back then there was a diving board on the edge of the grassy bank. 

Grandma told me about her father's line of profession when I was fairly young, too young to understand the word 'undertaker,' at any rate. Later, I came to realise that he was a kind of funeral director. I asked her for more information on this, and she told me about the funeral home they had owned, and the small snippets of her memories there. She told me that my forefathers had been undertakers for several generations. In Lanark, I stood outside the small clapboard house marked 'Russell Frank Funeral Home,' not quite believing that this was that very same place.

Grandma often told me of her mother's library, the biggest personal library in the region. I imagined shelves upon shelves of books, mostly fictional stories - mysteries and science fictions - much like my Grandma's own bookshelves. I imagined my Great Grandmother sitting at the table reading to her husband over the top of her glasses, saying "Listen to this Huestis..." In Lanark, I saw a small portion of my Grandmother's great library - those books that had not been donated. I scanned their spines with my fingers and looked through some of the aging pages. I would have liked to read them all, given the time.


BITS AND PIECES

Whitewashed clapboard houses. 
After a heavy bout of rain, the locals were out taking the opportunity to mow the lawns, and as my mother and I walked down shady tree lined paths, the sound was like a humming drone coming nearer and farther. 
Mum attested to me that the shops have remained the same: an old general store selling all kinds of canned produce and watermelons, and the same pizza place on the corner. 
The main drag of the town is contained within one block, and beyond that are houses, and beyond that are cornfields. Lots of them. 
The ground rolls and bumps gently along, affording views far into the distance. Views of water-towers and of silos which once held the grain for the local cattle. 
In the house of a family friend, we listened to Pachelbel's Canon on the harp, while the youngest girl attempted to show me all her stuffed animals. 
The local diner hosts each and every old person for breakfast, and they chatter between eachother, and shake my hand, each one telling me how they knew my Grandma.
Uncle Herb showed me around the farm: the barn where my Great Grandmother got stuck in the rafters; the site of the old house; and the corn fields - where he dug his fingers into the dirt, searching for new roots.

 

Uncle Herb checking for corn seedlings sprouting in the ground, Illinois.
Shops in the tiny town of Lanark, Illinois.
At a diner in a small town, Illinois.
Great aunt Dana showing mum how to play the harp.

THE GRAND CANYON

The Grand Canyon, in black and white.
In the Southwest, canyons are assertive landscapes. Aridity sharpens their bones. Rivers may run through them—open arteries in a carapace of rock; others flow only with blow-sand and chokestones. Canyons come blind, box, side, slot, hidden. They stair down and pour off. They gooseneck. They hang. Muley Twist, Desolation, Snap, Lavender, Blue Canyon, Rain Canyon— canyons are where you want to live merely on behalf of their names. The Hopi word pösövi means “canyon corners,” as if one quirky, prismatic facet at a time were all you could manage in this seemingly irrational geography of space and rock.
— ELLEN MELOY - HOME GROUND

GRANDER THAN WE

A pillar of stone drifts on the edge of the canyon about a meter from the edge. It tempts any stray adventurers, who contemplate jumping over that void to become a lonesome star inhabiting an island on top of the world.
Oliver jumped across the gap, and my heart caught in my throat a little. But I stayed put, legs swinging over the edge of my solitary perch, wind whipped hair caught in my mouth, eyes and tangled into a frenzy. It was windier than I had imagined it would be. The canyon exceeded my expectations in other ways too; the size of the canyon being almost incomprehensible.
At one point, the cliffs of the opposite rim looked so close, reachable, maybe, if one was to leap off the edge and take flight.
Then I was astounded to learn that these cliffs were over 50 km away. It was like the distortion one sees in a car mirror but this time it would read:

OBJECTS IN CANYON ARE FURTHER THAN THEY APPEAR

The landscape was teaching me perspective.
Me: a tiny being sitting on a precipice and swinging my feet above a mile of thin air.
The canyon: endless space, rock points, facets, small patches of red desert Indian paintbrush growing in a crevasse, wind, warmth, loss of heat at the end of the day, heat gained while walking down into the Earth, rivers, animals, first peoples, a billion insects, the changing seasons, an ongoing process of millions of years of erosion. 

SHIFTS IN PERSPECTIVE

The canyon is undeniably beautiful. Words fail even the best of us when it comes to describing the canyon. But look past the initial shock, and the aesthetic value of the scene. What can we learn from the canyon? How might we learn these lessons?

The canyon teaches resident artists the value of colour, the way it changes from day to day, season to season. It teaches the ecologists the value of life, of land, of resources to support its growth - pockets of plants existing uniquely, atmospheres changing rapidly from one altitude to the next. Miniscule moments, morning noon and night, the days, the years, the bees, the flowers, those rocks we now see on the eroded walls, these are all studies on the human level.

Then there are those things we are unable to know. No person will live long enough to study the lifespan of the canyon, nor learn firsthand the bigger lessons it has to teach: of creation, erosion, formation, shape, gradual compaction, of the ancient world and seas, and of a distant future that exists within its very walls the way it does not exist within me.

What I learnt was humility. The canyon exists even if I do not. Life goes on, buzzing in each corner, in each moment, for longer than I can even imagine. It tells me there is something grander, something of which we are only a infinitesimal part. And that was truly humbling. 

 

Sitting on the edge of the Grand Canyon.
The Grand Canyon in the late afternoon - blue skies and shadows.
Oliver looking through a telescope at the Grand Canyon.
Spring at the Grand Canyon - red desert flowers.
The Grand Canyon ledge.
The Grand Canyon in black and white.
Walking the rough Hermit Trail into the Grand Canyon.
Oliver standing on a pinnacle at the Grand Canyon.
Red and purple desert flowers in the Grand Canyon in spring time.
Red walls of the Grand Canyon at sunset.
Sunset at the Grand Canyon - pink hues.